In the Face of Seeming Defeat

I have a speech thing that I’ve had since I was young. Sometimes, it gets the better of me. I lost an agent because of it. I really should train it out of me, but in the meantime, I press onward.

Today, I had an audition where my mouth would not cooperate with me. The reader was so kind through it all, but still I just couldn’t get the words out. I left the audition completely dejected. I went home, had some coffee and dark chocolate peanut butter cups, talked to my wife, and checked my email. I got a “cmail” (casting email) for another role, auditioning tomorrow. I read the sides. The character is someone I bonded with immediately. I’m ready to crush the audition.

It’s funny, every time I think I’m out, not good, and better off doing something else, that negative spirit is counter-acted by an even more powerful, positive one. I am thankful to God for this spirit. I feel that because of it, against all odds, I should keep going.

I am reminded of a Bible verse, “My power is made perfect in weakness.” (2 Corinthians 12:9) It’s so cliché, but I feel a Divine calling to this profession. Whatever comes of it, it’s His doing. I’m just enjoying the ride.

One comment

  1. I needed that this morning – crush it, buddy.

    Look forward to seeing you soon.

    In His Love,


    Rev. Joy Moss

    Associate Pastor

    Skyland United Methodist Church

    John 10:10 “I came that you may have life, and have it abundantly.”

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