Body Issues

I’ve had plenty of body issues in the past:

Spent a lot of middle and high school anorexic

Had a horrible self image of myself,

thought I was garbage,

the eating patterns began to wane in college,

thanks to the support of friends and family

and a solid therapist.

The self image still lingers.

Now, I love to eat,

and I’m working on loving myself more.


Funny, the more I invest in others,

the more I forget my own problems,

but you still need to love yourself.

Generosity and good deeds

do not a full recovery make.


I surrender my life to Jesus daily,

I’ve gotten into this whole naturist thing.

It’s all connected.

It begs the question:

Do you love who you see in the mirror?

It’s not a complicated question. The simple questions are

the hardest to answer.

Jesus made me. I can either accept this form

or throw it out.

Sure, I’ve made mistakes,

but Jesus always responds with grace.

Do I trust Him?

Do I love Him enough to believe He loves me?

At Haywood Street Congregation,

we have a simple mantra, a call-and-response:

Q: Whose child are you?

A: God’s child!

Let it be, LORD. Let it be.

Scheduled Execution

As I set my head upon the guillotine,

A voice descended from heaven.

“Stop! Why do you do this?” It said.

“Because I am guilty,” I said, “deserving death.”

“Your sins are grave, but I took them to the grave

They died with me and I brought you up

into new life. Do you not remember this?”

“I forget so easily,” I said.

“Rise, my child, into my grace,

and your new life.”

I did rise after all and since then

have been forever changed,

though that fateful blade still haunts menacingly

the corner of my mind’s eye.

Truth and Judgement

I am a child of light

but it’s so easy to be tempted into the dark.

In the dark there is judgement and fear,

in the light there is hope and joy.

Why do I stray?

I stray because I am human.

Yet, Jesus, who is divine,

always beckons me back.

Sometimes I fear God,

but He always welcomes me.

He must speak truth now and again,

cutting out what is evil,

but He always replaces it with good.

In darkness,

all there is is spoiled food,

appealing but rotten.

I rejoice in the Holy Banquet of the Divine,

it tastes as wonderful as it smells.

Every time I find myself starving,

He calls dinnertime.

How fast I run to His bosom,

into His outstretched arms.

I am His child, forever and always.



What a wonderful word!

The idea of our past mistakes being forgiven absolutely.

Are there still consequences for our actions? You bet.

But now we are not stuck in the past,

having instead been given a new way truth and life in which we can walk,

a future of promise.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD,

“plans to prosper you and not to harm you.

Plans to give you hope and a future.”

-Jeremiah 29:11

End of Book 3 + Special Announcement

Well friends,

We’ve made it to the end of book 3. This one especially important to me. I’ve tried to go bigger and better every time I’ve done one of these. What began as a flippant scribbling on a blog wall when I first came to North Carolina has blossomed first into a small poetry book, followed by a second poetry book with matching audio. Now, thanks your continued encouragement, I’ve decided to really go for the gusto. I’ve submitted my book for legit publishing. Ever since I was in high school, working on my first literary tome, I’ve dreamed of getting published through a major press. Now, years later, I’m going at it again, and I think it stands a really good chance.

I’ve definitely learned a lot over the years. Most of all: do what you all and don’t quit. And even more so than that, give it all to God, because He loves you and He is a good Father, more than capable of directing our steps to greener pastures.

I’m so excited to see where this next step in the journey leads.

Blessings to you all,