The Moments that Keep Us Going

We call it the drop:

that moment where you shed all your stuff

of how you think you should be and how you should act and how you should sound

and you just trust yourself and listen to your body and the company you’re with

and it’s like a burden lifts off your soul and you drop comfortably into yourself,

Those are the moments we strive towards,

the moments that keep us going.

Limits Are Limits

Your limits are your limits

don’t be embarrassed

Feel free to test them,

very often they are just a glass ceiling

beyond which is your true reality,

but even still limits exist,

they are your body, mind, and soul saying,

“not now, and maybe even not ever”

Stand  and celebrate them,

our weakness is just as much a part of us

as our strengths,

in fact, embracing what we are not

is just as beautiful and healthy and good

as embracing what we are.

So, be honest with yourself,

let the critics have their say,

but rejoice in knowing who you are

Good Enough

Am I good enough?

No, I am not, because

“good enough” for you or him

or her or them changes.

Sometimes, I’m that. Sometimes, I’m not.

So, no, I am not good enough,

but I’m here. I care. I commit.

I show up even when times are hard,

and I’d rather be a mediocre player

who shows up even when he’s down,

than a superstar who magically appears

only when they are at their best.

However,

I do know a God who is good enough.

Always good enough.

I do my best to follow his lead.

Thoughts on Agents, Projects, Etc.

I have been targeting a particular agent for my acting career for the last month or so. It took some time to get all my stuff together and looking professional. Finally got the headshots, résumé,  and cover letter sent out, filmed an audition that I really connected with, and arranged a time for us to chat. He reviewed the material thoroughly and told what he liked about me and what he didn’t. He made me a conditional offer for representation, then left the ball in my court.

I pondered this for a bit and I considered accepting his offer, but decided to seek advice from one of my acting coaches first. I figured this coach, being in fact the man through whom I met the agent, would have some great insight in this matter. After sharing our conversion with him, he told me “no.” His reasoning was simple: you are who you are; don’t try to be anyone else. He then related he had already started contacting other agents, telling them about me, and that there was a certain agent that he thought would be a better fit, and that I should call her at such and such time. I left that second conversation affirmed and empowered in myself and grateful for his advice.

The moral of the story is this: you can only be you. In this line of work, any act of pretension is immediately apparent. You must find the people and the projects that you fall in love with, and they fall in love with you. Of course, there will be pairings that are like “Mr. Right-for-Now,” but in the long run the projects and people that last, the ones you want to target and pour your soul into are those who see you and know you and love you just as you are.

The same holds true in life. You are who you are. There are flaws that you need to iron out, micro-evolutionary changes that need to be made, but in the big picture you can only be who you are in the core of your being, and the best matches in life see that and know that and love that.

So, my challenge to you is to continuously put yourself out there, to never settle, to know thyself, and to wait for the right match. If it’s meant to be, it WILL come. Leave this blog post with the still, quiet affirmation of that unshakeable fact.

God bless you and keep you all. Have a great day!