Good Enough

Am I good enough?

No, I am not, because

“good enough” for you or him

or her or them changes.

Sometimes, I’m that. Sometimes, I’m not.

So, no, I am not good enough,

but I’m here. I care. I commit.

I show up even when times are hard,

and I’d rather be a mediocre player

who shows up even when he’s down,

than a superstar who magically appears

only when they are at their best.

However,

I do know a God who is good enough.

Always good enough.

I do my best to follow his lead.

Thoughts on Agents, Projects, Etc.

I have been targeting a particular agent for my acting career for the last month or so. It took some time to get all my stuff together and looking professional. Finally got the headshots, résumé,  and cover letter sent out, filmed an audition that I really connected with, and arranged a time for us to chat. He reviewed the material thoroughly and told what he liked about me and what he didn’t. He made me a conditional offer for representation, then left the ball in my court.

I pondered this for a bit and I considered accepting his offer, but decided to seek advice from one of my acting coaches first. I figured this coach, being in fact the man through whom I met the agent, would have some great insight in this matter. After sharing our conversion with him, he told me “no.” His reasoning was simple: you are who you are; don’t try to be anyone else. He then related he had already started contacting other agents, telling them about me, and that there was a certain agent that he thought would be a better fit, and that I should call her at such and such time. I left that second conversation affirmed and empowered in myself and grateful for his advice.

The moral of the story is this: you can only be you. In this line of work, any act of pretension is immediately apparent. You must find the people and the projects that you fall in love with, and they fall in love with you. Of course, there will be pairings that are like “Mr. Right-for-Now,” but in the long run the projects and people that last, the ones you want to target and pour your soul into are those who see you and know you and love you just as you are.

The same holds true in life. You are who you are. There are flaws that you need to iron out, micro-evolutionary changes that need to be made, but in the big picture you can only be who you are in the core of your being, and the best matches in life see that and know that and love that.

So, my challenge to you is to continuously put yourself out there, to never settle, to know thyself, and to wait for the right match. If it’s meant to be, it WILL come. Leave this blog post with the still, quiet affirmation of that unshakeable fact.

God bless you and keep you all. Have a great day!

we are powerless

we like to preach on power,

but it’s a simple fact that there are things

over which we are powerless

nature, for example, and death.

we can talk until we are blue in the face

about empowerment and still always be

sideswiped by these overriding forces.

therefore, we must proceed in humility

working with these things,

not in spite of them,

learning to cope with their existence

in order to truly thrive.

the alternative, my friends, is 

a descent into madness.